Your not looking at me
Your not looking into me
Your looking souly for the things you want from me
U cant find me
And I don’t even kno if you want to
Your stare has made my eyes turn glass
Marbles that clack for your game
Is it just a challenge
Am I just a tornament
No different from a toss of the dice
Slowly but surly starting to bore you
But you come back because your still curiouse to kno how it will end
Look at me
At me
Inside me
Past your reflection in my eyes
Find me
Or your game was a waist of time
Look at my mistakes
But understand my intentions
Look at how naïve
And realize Ive forgotten who I am
Find me
Look at me
And free me
Insensative
What have I done
So cold
I just killed you
Inside me you burned like a rejected reflection of all my mistakes
I ripped you out without a second thought
I sit and I wonder what was best
Im no good for you
Theres no way I could have protected you
Im sorry
I could never accept you
Alone id be nothing for you
Alone is all I am
The unaborted mistake
I love you
So I despise me
Insensitive
I killed you
One day you find me
In a silhouette of red
Melodies behind me
Dim lights a soft glow
A fragrance, musty yet unnoticed
You just can’t put you finger on the name
But familiar it will be
A peaceful setting
With slight despair
Do not worry
I was gentle
You’ll notice my favorite picture hanging
And a photo in my hand
It’s that simple
The melody plays yet its silent
You slowly blink
Then feel a breeze
I must have cracked a window
The cold air has always smelled so pure to me
Filling up my lungs with sweet and numbing sentiments
I am content now
So do not worry
Don’t moisten those cheeks in fear
I am free now
I am happy
A kiss on the cheek is all I ask
That is to say goodbye
SmileIt’s not the end
I am behind you
And when your eyes are closed
I am rite there in front of you
And as you sleep I hold your hand
U will never be without me
Yet never again will you touch my flesh
Can u compromise
Understand that my love is still with you
I just needed to let my heart rest a while
Physically I was broken
But now I am safe
Nothing can harm me now
Do not feed on my sorrows
Embrace the life around you
( I REALY DONT PLAN ON FIXING MY SPELLING .. IT IS WHAT IT IS )
Picture the thing that makes your skin crawl
thats my version of a hug
death wraped around me with a smile
and a plastic mask
whispers
fake words of compation
i kno this
i feel it every day
the common hello
the co worker
the best friend
the overly happy family member
bunt cakes and jello
hidden but driven by rittlan , prozac, and booze
the hug
my vision of hell
a desies
personality in the form of skin
gripping and wraping you like a blinket soaked in piss
my skin crawls
but you smile
maybe next time ill initiate the hugg
thats my version of a hug
death wraped around me with a smile
and a plastic mask
whispers
fake words of compation
i kno this
i feel it every day
the common hello
the co worker
the best friend
the overly happy family member
bunt cakes and jello
hidden but driven by rittlan , prozac, and booze
the hug
my vision of hell
a desies
personality in the form of skin
gripping and wraping you like a blinket soaked in piss
my skin crawls
but you smile
maybe next time ill initiate the hugg
And so it feels like an ok day
but its not
like a sunset on a silver lining
pretty as can be
but masked by sweet suroundings and smiles of what you remember
what you want to remember
truth is
darkness still falls as the sun still sets
i kno this
memories are just as good as made for hallmark photos for show
I'll accept it
today
an ok day
I'll take it
even if it kills me tomorrow with and ironic double pronged fork
a new day of fuck ups
fuck you's
OD's
broken plans
being short on rent
breakups
breakdowns
shit
stepping on a nail
problem is i expect so much
and i want so little
or so i think
i hate nothing
i dislike everything
i want company
but im bored of your love
its been an ok day
no one's broken
rents not due
haven't cryed
yet
i guess thats worth something.
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